Lately, I have mostly been talking about food, recipes and Christmas, but today I want to talk about something different. I want to talk about being true to yourself. I know I voluntarily put myself out there to be criticized, but most of the time I am met with genuine gratitude. I am not sure why it is the negative comments that stick with a person most, but that’s what tends to happen. You start to reconsider the person you are when someone makes a negative remark about your weight, eating habits or training program. You question yourself, wondering if you are too skinny, too muscular, working out too hard or your eating habits offend others. Personally I don’t believe you can ever eat too clean. Hearing these things make me rethink why I started on my journey.
My journey began because I was unhappy with my physical appearance, which then began to affect me emotionally. I never thought I was overweight, but knew that if I didn’t change something I would continue to be unhappy. It took me a while to become happy with the way I looked and the person I was becoming. I could finally look the mirror and not be disgusted, but instead be proud. The reflection in the mirror reflected the way I was treating my body. I was treating my body the way I should have treating it the whole time. Eating healthy food, no more processed garbage, exercising and lifting weights beyond what I ever thought I was capable of, and most important my mind was healthy. No more self bashing and instead I was beginning to love who I was. No, not in a conceded, self loathing kind of way, but a healthy, “I know I’m not perfect, but I’m okay with that” kind of way. You need to love yourself before others can, and you can’t expect others to treat you with respect if you don’t even respect yourself. You need to feel gratitude, be thankful you have legs so you can walk and run, and hands you are able to carry things with and lift weights, never take anything for granted. Most importantly, be you. Everyone has an opinion on who you should be, how you should dress, even how you should eat.
I never thought food would ever become a concern of anyone but myself, but it did. People were concerned that I was on a diet, I wasn’t eating enough, or that I should eat a cheese burger. My husband and I chuckle about this whenever someone makes a comment regarding my weight, because he always joking that I eat the same or more than a grown man. This is true, but I eat whole, clean foods. People are shocked when I tell them the amount of calories I eat, but in order to sustain enough energy to fuel my body, I need to eat enough to do so. The same thing came about with the way I workout. People were concerned that I would get to bulky, or look like a man. In order for that to happen I would have to take some form of steroid, which I am never prepared to do. I like the way I feel and look with some muscle on my body, and I can attest to the fact that you will not get bulky from lifting weights.
I understand that people don’t always get my lifestyle, but I LOVE it. I love eating healthy, lifting weights and eating period :). I would never participate (willingly :)) in something that would harm my body. But sometimes you feel like when people are making comments about the way you look, if you are eating enough or training too hard, you start to question yourself. But I then reflect back on my journey, and wouldn’t change a thing. I am just trying to be me. I am trying to share my life and journey with others, in hopes that I can help just one person make a healthy change for themselves. We get so caught up in who were not or want to be, instead of focusing on who we are. It’s much easier being yourself then trying to be someone else. When I get caught up in the riff raff sometimes, I reflect back on the positive comments I receive, and how good they make me feel. I know that the people in my life who love me, love me for who I am, not who they want me to be. Now I will apologize for my rant/post and hopefully it makes sense, and if you get one thing from it, it should be to ALWAYS be yourself, because you are awesome just the way you are! If you are embarking on a new journey, enjoy it the entire way, and always stay true to who you are. If you are making positive changes, don’t let anyone tell you what you should be doing. Only you can determine that for yourself!
I would also like to say that I am heartbroken and deeply saddened by the loss of all those children and school workers in Newtown. Enjoy life and don’t take your loved ones for granted!